A Journey Through Wholeness
Piece of Diary - 10 . 4 . 18
It is 4.58 am this morning, feeling like I am going to explod ... so I decided to write a bit, just to get my frustration out of the way. I have got a difficult time dealing with inner self talk and emotions." I feel like this , I feel like that , I don't feel like doing this or that ... " how frustrating this circus is. I will not deal with that for long , the I FEEL - LIKE slippery pathway I said no . I have had enough.
Your brain is part of the visible, tangible world of the body. Your mind is part of the invisible, transcendent world of thought, feeling, attitude, belief and imagination. The brain is the physical organ most associated with mind and consciousness, but the mind is not confined to the brain. Priscilla 3 . 2. 19
How many can relate to this little introspection ?
I am sure you are.
Let me explain, my frustration was stated out of anger because of this constant state of nagging I was experiencing at the time.
I remember I became conscious of self talk, voices heard in my mind when one day the noice seemed repetitive and unceasing. I was in my twenties doing life , exploring , enjoying with no regard for conviction of sin , judgement or righteousness as God standard through His Son Jesus the Christ.
However being a Christian (a follower and believer of Christ) I came to understand that our mind is the battlefield for the war that oppose the kingdom of darkness with which of Light , but good news , the battle has been won more than 2000 years ago. and we just have to be obedient , discerning and applying God's way and words in every circumstances that demands a response.
Depression is often seen in the church as a very negative spiritual force which deeply imprisoned a person mind and spirit to the point that their ability to stand is extremely minimal. All hope is lost, and looking forward seen like a difficult perception to articulate . The DSM 5 which describe depression such as
I would like to talk about depression in the church, from a leadership side as well as attendee. Many christian are suffering from depression and have not yet being able to find ways to cope with it or even accept the idea that it does exist despite the promise of GOD. Not to say that God doesn't save, protect and direct those He called; however it is a mental state as well as a spiritual state that is not to be underestimate. I found that in church the pressure seems to remain faultless or perfect in this body of flesh. However God doesn't desire sacrifice but mercy additionally we are peferected in Christ ins spiritual places which actually are sense in the physical , natural or carnal realm. God surely want us to come as we are , but He wants the glory out of your life and because of the love for His creation , He will cause you to. change , but in the condition if you are willing. Depression crippling and too many are playing the game of the enemy by pretending. Meakness is what the Lord want. Just open your heart, be as vulnerable as possible for he sees it all. The deepest hidden thought . Your life is too pressure to be dancing and inviting the enemy in fellowship with your inner self. If the Holy Spirit has a dwelling place in this sanctuary redeemed by God co- hahabitiation is not a luxury, not an option , not to be consiered 18/01/21
didn't know I could discern God's voice , from mine and the enemy's lies (lying spirits).
Maturing and growing in Christ I understood that this negative , depressive and oppressing talk was a spiritual attack. I therefore quickly I learnt that feelings could not be trusted and in order to navigate through life I would have to learn to fellowship with the Holy Spirit ( the Spirit of God ) , following His guidance and start living by faith omitting my sight . ( Not to say that my walk has been perfect , it is not about perfection but maturation and most of all genuiness)
That could be the scariest experience , how could I forget about my senses and wholly trust. I remember that I had vivid thoughts questioning my spiritual reconciliation with God . I was constantly questioning if I truly believe in God , I thought I was becoming crazy ... it went on and on . journey in the I
s it the way we are suppose to perceive and navigate this present time, based on our emotions?
The " I - FEEL- LIKE " is such a slippery pathway to walk on , furthermore when most of us seems to think they have little or no control over it .
My personal opinion , is none of us has been created for this drama .
Which pair of glasses could we wear to adjust our sight outside of feelings ? and more in tune with what ?
Mental health
Depression
Suicide : Maxine